The four seasons are moving through their course, set in motion by the Creator and observed by the month on our calendars. Spring has ushered in warm breezes heavy with pollen, new life emerging from every aspect of creation. My heart also senses a disruption unfolding deep within itself, as the calendar moves forward but my life stands still. A paradox unraveling.

“The time and season have arrived for the new purpose I have planned for you.” said the Lord.  “I am tilling the soil of your heart preparing you to walk in the fullness of who I created you to be. Do not dwell on the past or be confounded by your pain. Do you perceive the new thing I am doing?”

“Not really, Lord.” I replied, a little confused. “But this I do know; I am your witness and apart from You, there is no God.”

Jesus took my hand, walking me into the deep woods where the trees were dense, and the air was heavy. Turning to face me, the Lord continued speaking.

“From your perspective, life took an unexpected turn into the wilderness filled with darkness and loss. But My eyes were always upon you as I led you out of that wasteland to the border of your promised land, where you now stand. Are you ready to cross?”

“I want to have confidence in moving forward, but I am now alone in this journey, which causes me to hesitate.” I replied, hanging my head in shame from my lack of courage.

The Lord raised my head to meet His gaze. “You are never alone. Wherever you go, I will be with you.”

Placing His hands on my shoulders, Jesus slowly spun me around. We were standing on the threshold of a beautiful clearing, but everything seemed to be just out of reach. “You must choose whether or not you will cross over to take possession of your promised land. Do not allow fear to forfeit the blessings I have waiting for you.”

My breath was labored, heavy with the weight of the moment. “Lead me to your banquet table so I may feast on your provision of Love which subdues all fear, Lord.”

Standing on the boundary line, both of us facing my promised land, I felt Jesus’ face brush against mine as He whispered in my ear.

“Unfathomable to most, My Love is the greatest element in the universe, infinite and abounding. It conquers all and never fails. My eternal banner flies over you bearing a special inscription of Love written in My blood. You are My cherished treasure and promised land. I will never leave you, for you are My inheritance.”

Comforted by 1 John 4:9-12&18; Ecclesiastes 3:1; Joshua 1; Isaiah 43:12, 18-19; Romans 8:38-39; 1 Corinthians 13:7-8 & 13; Song of Solomon 2:4; Isaiah 44:8; 1 Samuel 1:1-20; Hebrews 3:7-19, 13:5; John 3:16-18; Ephesians 1.

Sleep escapes my eyes as the clock mocks me reading 3:00am, my soul yearning for answers from The Living God. There is a conflict rising in my soul between my belief in Your faithful promises and the unfulfilled miracle that looms in my heart, Lord.

“I am Faithful and True.” said the Lord. “My promises are not bound by your concept of time and My miracles may manifest in front of you but remain unseen due to your distracted heart. The earthly realm runs parallel with the Heavenly realm, separated by one human heartbeat and a single breath. A person steps from this realm into the next but My promises stretch across space and time. From My Sovereign position, I choose which domain My promises will be fulfilled; but be assured, they will be achieved.”

I promptly felt exceedingly small within the expanse of the Lord’s universe; my faith also reflected the same measurement as I replied with a meager voice. “I now realize the miracle may manifest differently from what I originally envisioned. Give me strength to wait expectantly, never craving more while in the desert, nor testing You while in the wilderness.”

Sensing my wounded spirit, the Lord moved-in close to comfort me. I felt His hand gently caress the side of my face, resting under my chin, softly raising my head to meet His eyes.

“When you look with earthly eyes, you only see loss. Do not focus on the perceived absence of your desire, but rather focus on the inclusive miracle I am doing in your midst. Engage your Spiritual eyes to see the multitudes around you waiting to be fed with only five loaves and two fish. Gather-up the fragments which you believe to be useless, for they are treasures of excess permeated with My Power, which you now hold in your hands.”

I could not pull my eyes away from Jesus’ strong gaze as I pleaded. “Give me eyes to see and ears to hear. Make my heart beat with Yours, Lord.”

“I am the Faithful Witness, the Ruler of the kings of the earth, the God of abundance. I have chosen and called you to ignite and multiply those fragments, accomplishing more than you could ever imagine as I strengthen your inner being with Power. Be ready and surrendered to Me, for I will move swiftly at the appointed time. Be the miracle, My faithful follower. Future generations are depending on you for their miracle.”

Comforted by Revelations 1:5, 17:14, 19:11; Psalm 106:13-14; Ephesians 3:20; John 6:5-13, 69; Hebrews 11; Ezekiel 12:1-2; Nehemiah 9:13-21